Ten years ago today, I got an e-mail from Tony. It was the first time I’d heard of him – he’d seen me on a dating website and sent me what they called a Tease. It said, “If I could rearrange the alphabet, I would put U and I together.” It was silly. It made me laugh. When I went back later and looked at the other Tease options, that one was the only one that I found even remotely appealing. Of course, that’s the one he picked.
We e-mailed back and forth, and I remember at one point he said that he had looked at his keyboard and noticed that the U and I keys were in fact right next to each other, and he hoped that didn’t distract from his tease. I assured him it didn’t – it said alphabet, not keyboard.
I still have that e-mail. I still have so many of them, hundreds and hundreds over the years. Looking at them right now makes me really sad, but they are there when I want them. And every time I look at my keyboard, I think of Tony and I think, how I wish I could put you and I back together. How I wish.